Umpqua Rushing
Panic in the first beat of the morning,
Even what I've got isn't worth offering
If I can't cross the sheets and hold your beat.
Talking in the street with who is listening,
Nothing that I say is worth remembering.
Even faces change- my heart stays the same.
Engine in the sky won't let the moment go,
Following behind always a second slow.
If I'm far away, am I hearing straight- I'm no voice you want to know?
You've been a forest burning no direction,
Caught me sleeping smoke in my protection.
Your blackened branches drifting through my water-
Are you wrapped up in his arms? I'm rushing faster and faster.
Panic in the taste of all that could have been,
Even what I thought wasn't worth giving,
At least my mind has changed.
I've been a forest burning no direction,
I tried to hold you, I tried everything but running.
My heart is panicking- are you kissing him?
Are you reaching through all your days with him?
Your blackened branches drifting through my water-
Are you over me? Are you? Are? You are.
I will not hold you. I will not feel your sway.
I will not miss you. I will not think each day,
Of summer twilight, your eyes rushing through me deep,
I saw my own waters rushing right back to me-
You sitting shotgun, the lost coast calling me,
Umpqua Forest, your face just like in my dream…